I was there afraid of myself,
to get lost somewhere inthe midst…
But I can never express myself,
so was the reason to fight with you..
I knew, I never wished..
that u feel the same as I do..
But often I get away with
the thought that you care for me
And the very next, I could know,
it’s all kidding not the truth..
I feel the world lost,
when I see you teasing me by..
Again on the way I could feel,
you don’t even know me anyhow…
All those agony make me cry,
not loud ofcourse,but broken inside..
A kind of conflict around,
as to be away from you.
One thing is there that,
I had never wished a thing,
to get away from you..
Still, I am knowing the departure,
where I’ll be alone again without anyone..
May be all these are stupidities,
for you and for everyone around,
except for a stupid..
A stupid for whom,I shall say
all these are divinity,nature’s gift,
but as though all of a sudden,
it turned out to be stupidity.
Stupidity of life,stupidity of love…
Well, this’s what she is ever expecting,
and may be cautious on the way ahead….
I am Cautious….
Why Is It so??
I ever knew how troubling it is …
when you get hurt for a reason unknown..
May be there is a reason strong enough..
Only for you ,not a reason for someone else…
But why?Why does it happen to me??
And may be I am alive for this…
A kind of stupid emotions surround me through..
Just to make me feel it’s not all human
I shall say it’s all divine..
But my divinity has a value only for me.
I wonder ever why am I so!
when something goes mere the way,
I feel it’s coming to the way I am
But,alas I do regret it was an illusion..
An illision to fool me up…
Nothing was there, nor did anyone see..
Only it was a kind of hallucination just for me.
I knew not everything, but ofcourse something
But still, I am too ignorant of those which I should know
No, not again, I shall not wish myself,
Be again where I have been ever ,weeping alone..
I knew I was alone over there…
But why I never understand anything..
To leave of all those that aches..
To be bold enough to do what I wish
To say aloud what I feel for
But how shall I be so..
If it been so, then I shall not be me..
I am well composed as I am…
It’s all what I have to say atlast….
Why Did You Did?
As though on the wedge of this mysterious life,
I feel there ’s nothing which could be believed .
When it seems ,it’s not
and what’s there not seen at all.
We don’t know at which point we need to face,
those things ,which we never thought of,
and nor do we wish to think that way.
I just feel stingy when I am there, to be nowhere
When you get too near and leave off all of a sudden,
without a hint to where you are,
without a word to bid goodbye.
It’s too paining why don’t you understand.
You have gone but,the pain is for us.
How shall we bear,you could have told
Before you left, before you’ve been so close.
My Chance
How to express myself….
I really don’t know…
Should I say my excitement got a way….
Or shall I stop the rest..
Nothing did happen…
Everything in vain…
I was there,but still….
Something was missing…..
May be myself tired of hoping….
Why can’t I be straight to say no….
Not another chance….
Why am I giving the ray a huge path…
I know it’s ever been so…
My life be a chance..
Just a chance without an outcome….
Waiting “better luck next time”…..
Well, whatever it be ….
I can say I am happy…..
Because it’s life …..
How shall I hate it….
Just b’coz it gave me sorrows at times….
Yes , only at times…
Rest is what I have to take up..
And I took it positively as pleasure……
